Ich kann dir zwar bei deiner Krankheit nicht helfen, noch glaube ich nicht an ein Karma aus vergangene Leben, aber einen Zen-Text kann ich dir anbieten, ich hoffe du kannst ein wenig Englisch.
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Someone asked, “What is conventional truth?”
The Master said, “Why do you want to talk about tangled vines?
When something is already clear, why do you want to drag in
questions and answers?” Just be free of all thoughts. That is what is
called ‘karma-free wisdom.’ Every day whether you are walking, or
standing, or sitting, or lying down, or when you are speaking, as long
as you don’t become attached to conditioned things, whatever you
talk about or look at will be free of karma.
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